ARRGGHHHH! LISTS!

After two weeks of almost non stop dress shopping, I am still no closer to deciding what I’m going to wear. If anything, I’m more confused than ever. N, on the other hand, has bought his suit. After one shopping trip. In one shop. In the same shopping trip he also managed to choose and order his wedding ring. That’s him pretty much sorted.

In contrast, I seem to be spiralling out of control. I think my problem is I make too many lists. Lists should be de-stressing – a way to bring order to brain mess. But perhaps there comes a point when the
list is so long it exacerbates the problem, creating even more brain mess. My list making has reached critical mess.

Here is my list for this week. Handily arranged into days:

Monday 3 January

Choose wedding rings

Choose wedding outfits

Book haircut

Book spray tan

Book mani/pedi

Arrange to see my Dad

Choose a reading for the wedding

Buy thank you notes and stamps

Write blog

Go for a run

Tuesday 4 January

Travel to Oxford

Find florist – choose if having bouquet

Find someone in Oxford to do something with my hair on day

Find somewhere to have reception

Visit ceremony venue to finalise ceremony

Meet caterer to discuss catering

Visit hotel – check not weird

Find venue for pre wedding get together

Decide on music requirements for reception

Write blog

Go for a run

Wednesday 5 January

Email photographer to check whether she can actually do it

Perhaps find new photographer

Return unsuccessful wedding dresses

Arrange chat with new boss

Tell cleaner I’m leaving the country

Visit selection of vintage dress shops in last ditch attempt to find a dress

Give up on finding a dress

Write blog

Go for a run

Thursday 6 January

Go to work

Apply for international drivers license

Arrange for post to be diverted to Qatar

Get spare keys cut

Collect coat from dry cleaners

Get many passport photos

Send out updated invites – hopefully with reception details

Take down xmas decorations

Meet up with Dad

Write blog

Go for a run

Friday 7 January

Go to work

Start to finish up work, clear draws etc…

Have hair cut

Attend work leaving do

Write blog

Go for a run

I have to admit I spend longer writing and arranging my lists than I do achieving any of the tasks on them. In the morning I review the lists. I then panic about what’s on the lists. I then try and achieve a couple of the things on the lists, before giving up and crying. After some encouraging words from N and a couple of anti anxiety tablets I review the lists again. Then I go shopping. At the end of the day I redistribute all the tasks I haven’t achieved onto other days on the list, before going to bed to lie awake for hours worrying, followed by fitful sleep and anxiety dreams.

Running regime starts tomorrow.